All my guys :)

So i woke up this morning thinking about, well no, rewind, i woke up this morning, hollered at Jesus for a minute, and then thought about all the guys I've been blessed to meet in college. It's not such a random thought, cuz one of my friends from high school is gettin married today and the plan is to go to the wedding...that is if i can finish this entry pretty quickly...

I was just thinking, if u combined the good parts of all my male friends...that would be one amazing guy. I decided to do a quick run through of the males I've become friends with (slash a couple of whom i've fallen for...and then picked myself up from, lol) in the last three years of school and summer :

Marcus: Black...well, mixed. Extremely passionate about God, great listener and problem solver. Easy to connect with.

George: Black. Really nice, honest, caring, loves God, great artist = very creative.

Jerred: White. Crazy. Genuine. Will definitely make females feel special. Loves God more than anything. Also a Pastor's Kid. Loves music/ gives great serenades. Easy to talk to. Trustworthy. Loves kids. Asked me to marry him if we're still single by age 37...then dropped it to 30...silly Jerred.

Miles: Black. Can do the impossible! Determined, tenacious, ambitious, great listener when he's around, a natural leader. Likes to shop almost as much as I do. Polite and chilvarous. Probably the person I identify most with and understand the best.

Adrian: Black. Hidden gem. Very creative and smart. Probably the funniest guy I've ever met. Shares my love of music/singing and connects with gospel music. Laid back yet engaging. Loves God. Really loves his family. Tells stories very well. Generally interests me.

Kellyn: Black. Incredibly gifted and intelligent. Shows acute interest in who/what he wants. Uses action to support words = not just talk. Easy to connect and spend time with. Articulate. Shares political/race consciousness. Can talk to him all night long...and have...twice.

Sherrick: Black. Athletic by nature and profession. Thoughtful, funny, entertaining. Enjoys music/ understands gospel and gospel rap, and really lives for God. Tells you exactly what he thinks. Generally motivated and passionate.

Now all of these guys, just like all people have drawbacks too...and some of them are pretty serious, but overall, I've been blessed to know a great group of males.

What occured to me though...well actually 2 things stood out to me:

#1) All these guys but one self-identify as Black. Though I have female friends of all races, and even share a pretty divese inner circle as far as females go, my close male friends are overwhelmingly Black....but then I've always really valued Black males. This list sort of made me question exactly why though. Not that it's bad to share a high appreciation for Black males, especially when most of society doesn't... but what is it specifically that makes them seem soooo special to me? I don't know how to pinpoint an answer to that question...

and #2) I guess I have really high standards...I want it all. The perfect guy is the combination of all the people I've mentioned above. Even if i don't necessarily find all of these guys attractive or want to be with them in life, these qualities, and especially the love for God and the sincere desire to live for him and connection to him through music IS Attractive to me.

What I'm realizing though, is just like I know all these great guys, when the time is right, God will let the guy who is the intersection of all these things find me...and hopefully, by that time, I'll be the embodiment of those values that matter most to him as well. Not that I'm expecting the "perfect man" by society's standards, or that I expect to be "perfect" for him by those standards...but I believe it's right for me to expect the person that is perfect For me...flaws and all...cuz I certainly have lots of them myself.

I'm learning to embrace the mantra "good things come to those who wait"...I hope mystery person is "waiting" for his good thing...cuz im waiting for mine :)


Deuces...In Him